دانلود رمان انگلیسی “از پایان شروع کنید”

Well, this is an uncontested new low. My best friend has let herself into my apartment and found me passed out at the piano in my wedding dress. She shakes me gently, pain shooting to my head as I meet her compassionate gaze—shame chasing the pain, tears chasing the shame, a finished piece, the best I’ve ever written, taunting me on the music stand beside an empty bottle of wine. ‘That was for him.’ I nod at the manuscript, voice raspy, throat dry from a thousand glasses of pinot gris and hours of wailing. Black and white notes blur as I stumble through the opening bars, clashing tones hurting my brain, scared I’ll never get this jangled mess straight again. Not just this piece. My life. ‘Audrey, come on. I’ll make some coffee.’ She lifts my hands from the keyboard and pulls me from the piano stool into a hug. ‘I’m sure it’s incredible. You’re just tired.’ We both know I am more than tired. Much more. I’m hungover. Devastated. Angry. Furious, actually— We catch sight of ourselves in the full-length mirror: Rachael in dark jeans and a soft cream jumper, blonde layers slicked into an immaculate ponytail as she props me up—face blotchy, eyes red, brown hair tumbling from a claw clip—the bride of Frankenstein. I loved the simplicity of this secondhand gown. I was convinced the black ribbon belt would elevate the ivory, as if fussing over the little details could somehow have saved us from this mess. ‘All of this would have been lovely,’ Rach says as we slip further into a warped horror version of what was supposed to be the happiest day of my life. Sunlight was meant to be streaming through these windows, but the curtains have been drawn for days. There should be mimosas. Strawberries. Croissants. Hope. The doorbell cuts through the fantasy, and I clutch Rach’s arm. ‘Did you call off hair and makeup?’ I can’t bear the idea that a duo of flawless, upbeat women may step into this wreckage. I don’t have the strength to explain this turn of events to a single other person, or even to hear Rach explain on my behalf.